If you write a blog post and no one reads it, does it exist?

I've  decided I'm no longer Wenckebaching but, rather, in a different blogging rhythm altogether. Maybe sinus bradycardia. Sinus bradycardia can be normal in healthy individuals who are well-conditioned - like athletes. The only problem with that analogy is that I haven't had any sustained exercise in years, so not sure I can still claim that one. But, anyway, I'm blogging less frequently, and I feel perfectly fine with that. Unlike a couple years ago, when I felt uncomfortable when not posting every few days, now, I'm unphased.

Coupled with not reading my feed reader in at least a month, staying relatively absent from blog world, and ignoring my statcounter means feeling like I'm not really writing for anyone anyway here...which is almost kind of a relief. I feel like I have so many audiences I am constantly writing for. For my side writing projects. For work manuscripts. It really is liberating to just do a brain dump every once in awhile.

*braindump commence*

We went to NJ for the holidays and -wow- Christmas church service in NJ was a treat as usual. Did you know women wear long white fur coats to church? I saw at least 2 women wearing these crazy white fur coats in the communion line - tried not to stare. I was also very distracted by the hair-flipping of the two teen sisters in the pew in front of me. Very distracted. They both sported an extreme side part (but opposite parts) causing all the hair to gather on one side, resulting in frequent need to flip/toss the hair out of their faces. Oh, how the hair would fly! Flip! Flip! Toss! Toss! One of them was also dressed like a lady of the night. A mini! With bare legs! In the midst of sub-freezing temperatures! And a Flashdance-esque shoulder-bearing hussy number! I was fascinated.

The Husband and I did get to escape one night into NYC for a dinner alone while my parents watched the kids. Can I tell you what a poser I feel like coming out of the depths of Penn Station with all the other train, bus, and tunnel NYC wannabes? I was convinced I was dressed all wrong and looked like a real housewife of NJ wearing my sweater dress, leggings, and ankle boots, I swear to God. The Husband said I totally looked like a native, but I felt extremely RHoNJ. Unfortunately, the weather sucked, what with the combo of gale winds and rain. We did get to lounge at Barnes and Noble, reading books and drinking coffee just like old times, while waiting for our dinner reservation. It was heavenly. Amazing. The leisure! No kids! Those couple hours were worth the trip alone.

We found tenants! Just as I was spiting Craigslist, a couple responded to our ad on Christmas Day. One week later and we were showing them the house which they LOVED. We really like them - good people - and so psyched to be done with this process! Really thankful. They actually asked us if there was a maximum time that we would want them to move out. Um, that would be a no. (Does it look like we enjoy this process of finding new tenants?)

At work on NYE (day), I presented a gift I coordinated for a coworker who is retiring. No one was doing anything, going-away-present-wise, and while I may not have been the most logical person to pull something together, I often find myself volunteering to be that person. I think it's the sap in me. Anyway, seeing his reaction to the gift - he clearly was touched- flooded me with so many warm fuzzies, I felt almost freaking giddy. I mean, holy warm fuzzies. Now, I totally know what it's like for those construction people on those build-a-house-for-those-in-need shows. Or Oprah. IT WAS AWESOME. It was a drug high. Totally worth hounding everyone and coordinating. A thousand times over.

Then, last night, Husband made me an incredible dinner for NYE. He actually used fresh black truffle for the primo. Dude. Had no idea it goes for $1600/lb and kept in a locked refrigerator/safe at Balducci's. He also grilled ribeye steaks under our deck furniture umbrella since it was freezing rain outside. That man is my husband! I am so lucky. And still full.

Now, I am resting in the glow of a full day. Work (boo) and then coming home to find our good friends over and hanging out with them the whole day just lounging, talking, our kids playing. They stayed for dinner and it was just such a warm, wonderful day, making me resolve to do this much more often in 2010. Be with friends.

So, sinus brady, not the worst rhythm to have. It can mean things are in good working conditions.

Comments

[jess Davenport]

Wait- did I miss the part where you're moving?

[Kyla]

I'm kind of in the same place, blog-wise. I don't need it like I used to and I don't post like I used to, but I'm not ready to give it up yet. It is nice to have a place to write without constraints or pressure.

Happy New Year, KC.

[flutter]

love you love you love.

[anna]

Hey I am still reading your blog! and I'm still waiting for version 23.0 XY!

[KC]

jess - no. Thank God. We held onto our old house and are renting it. Painful...

Kyla- Yes, don't need it like I used to but not ready to give it up either! Happy New Year, Kyla.

flutter- xoxo miss you

anna- oh, you'll wait a long time for version 23.0XY. Manufacturer is phasing it out. But, hopefully version 24.0XY will be released at some point.

[Manic Mommy]

Sometimes, I think about giving it up, when it becomes a chore but then the thought of losing my friends pulls me back in.

Happy New Year, Kathy.

[amy @teachmama]

seriously, KC, it's a treat when you do sit down and update your bloggy blog. You crack me up--and I swear you'll always be someone I look forward to spending time with. Never before have I met a former cheerleader, totally cool chick, with crazy identity issues like you. Really. Your comment on my blog as 'George' makes me laugh every time I think about it.

Happy New Year--

[KC]

Happy New Year, babe. I miss you!!!

[KC]

Above comment applies to both lovely ladies above. xo

[alejna]

I feel alternating detachment and compulsion with respect to my blog. I don't have the time I want to give to it, but I can't seem to give it up.

I'm glad you haven't given up on yours, either. It's so nice to see you here every now and again.

[Angela]

You know we second, third, and fourth that resolution. Happy New Year (again).

[Jason]

You have a great site here. I have a site myself where people come from around the world to debate on popular issues. I'd like to exchange links with you to help spread some traffic around between us. If you would like to, please leave a comment under my "Compadres" page letting me know when you've added my link and I'll return the favor.

Keep up the good work.

Jason
DEBATEitOUT.com

[rimarama]

There is a lady at our church who wears a mink stole WITH THE HEAD STILL ATTACHED.

Also, I will be reading as long as you keep posting here! Love me some KC.